It's A Record
Life is fucked. Can’t deal with myself and the bullshit around me.
life is gr8

school is going really well! grades are good, test scores have been awesome, family is great, work is great, tennis is great, and the new exhibition team im on is great!

prototypes is definitely a challenge, since its only once a week everything is down to the wire. the styles are out of my comfort zone, but its definitely good training for me. first practice went swell. everyone was really welcoming and coords are super fun. they made me wanna strive for more. i loved it. even though dancing competitively is out of the picture this year, dancing for fun and for the joy of it without the stress of competing is what i wished for to end this year before i transfer. my only competition right now is with myself, if i am willing to dedicate my time to this, put in 200% of my effort every practice once a week, and prove to myself that i can do something new. it is going to be a challenge but i accept :) this training can help me for fall season because i do want to get back into my competitive side when i transfer. that’s my goal. dancing is not going to be here forever, but it will in my heart. trying to make the best of it right now. i am so blessed that dance has opened up opportunity for me these past 7 1/2 years of dancing. thanks coach b. can’t stop, won’t stop.

on a side note, still do not know where im transferring. deciding between csun, csula, cal poly pomona :O oh decisions. damn its already march, 2 more months then im done at community college! might take summer school though for my behavioral sciences to complete and some urban studies pre-reqs xD


Haven’t been this nervous for an audition in so long. Ah. I forgot the feeling. What will I expect? Starting fresh? Will I fit in? I just want to do well and give it my all. I hate but love the feeling at the same time. 


this deserves waay more notes

The Flu wants me to give up in life…

why does it have to happen now? ive been sick since vibe which was 2 weeks ago. last week i was recovering then 2 days ago i began to have the symptoms again. sleeping patterns changed, body aches, cant taste food, typical symptoms. this week is shit. this weekm because i became ill again, because of it, i failed my first bio lab test, missed my tennis matches, missed work, i quit bmod this week because it was too much to handle since it is auditions week, my transfer degree came up with an error so i will not be getting it. ahhhhhh, all my hopes and plans are becoming to deteriorate, plus my dad has been getting into arguments with us this week. fkuc. give me a break. maybe im just having a rough week? trying to stay positive and hopefully the new week will be better. .

Week 3.

haven’t used this in awhile but thought it was appropriate too.


mom: where are you going its almost midnight

me: out